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I look up and – Chapter 2 – The meaning of red is…

“I brought you someone you might like” said Ling Shan while dragging Mei-er outside her manor. He passed by a slave trader earlier and bought her three slaves to gift to her. Mei-er’s manor only has her wet nurse and a few maidservants for heavy labor since she didn’t like being served upon. Ling Shan thought since she is turning 11 this year, she has to have some maids to serve her. The boy he bought however looks like he has some potential in using martial arts. He could be her bodyguard in the future.

Mei-er was dragged to Ling Shan’s manor, and there she saw three slaves bowing down.

“Is this the thing I’m supposed to like? You know I don’t like being waited on cousin.”

“You have to have them, you’ll be reaching the age of marriage soon and I don’t want you to be alone in another’s family with no way to fend for yourself.”

“You act as if you would let some bastard marry me.”

“I won’t, but it’s necessary for you to have them.”

Mei-er had no choice but to accept them. The first maid she saw looks timid and easily scared. She has a tanned complexion but it didn’t affect her timid nature. She looks so ordinary that you won’t be able to spot her in a crowd. The next maid looked the same but with a lighter complexion. She looked tough because her eyebrows are bushy and pointed in the end, making her look like someone who would beat someone up. The last one was a boy who looked cold and indifferent, she was a bit intimidated but she wasn’t scared of him. His complexion was sickly pale but his physique says otherwise. He stands tall as if he was from a military background. His looks cute right now but she bets he will be handsome in the future. Mei-er unconsciously blushed.

“So did you like them? I bought the boy since I imagine him being your bodyguard in the future.” With his fingers on his chin while looking at the slaves he bought, he asked Mei-er.

“I guess I do. Thank you for the gift cousin Ling Shan. I would like to take them to my courtyard so I can name them.” And so, Mei-er left to her courtyard with her newly assigned servants.

Upon returning, she named her new servants. Xiao Yi for the timid girl, Xiao Er for the tough looking girl and Xiao Qi for the boy. She called her wetnurse so she could assign the work for Yi and Er, while Xiao Qi was sent to his cousin for training.

After being with her new servants almost everyday, save for Xiao Qi, she felt like it wasn’t half bad having them around. She could talk to them carelessly and share her art without criticism. She also found out that Yi is actually the tough one while Er is the timid one. They were sisters and their personality is different from their looks. She was so shocked when she once saw Er crying while Yi scolding her for dropping the vase. 

Xiao Qi on the other hand, is not cold and intimidating at all! He was like a lost little puppy that needed her guidance all the way. One time, Xiao Qi wanted to wash his whole bed after he accidentally spilled dirt from a potted plant on it. Later Mei-er saw her wetnurse scolding Xiao Qi about it. She didn’t have the heart to keep on seeing him like that so she intervened. He also kept on calling her “my lady” which ultimately made her blush whenever he calls her.

It took Mei-er some time to adjust and just stayed inside the manor glumly cause of her misreading their looks.

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One night, Mei-er was restless and could not fall asleep so she went out her room and lied down on the grass in front of her manor while staring at the moon. It has been a while since she arrived in this place, she didn’t know why she was reborn in this place as an infant. In her past life, she was a webtoon artist. She liked drawing and painting from a young age and it didn’t change in her rebirth. Sure her works of art lacks mastery but she likes making art all the same. While contemplating, Xiao Qi sat beside her.

“What are you doing this late my lady?”

She looked at him, then back at the moon. “Have you ever felt like you just wanted to stare at the sky, admire the moon, admire the stars and praise the gods who created them?”

Xiao Qi just looked at her and stared up at the sky as well. “I didn’t have time to look at the sky my lady, but now that you mention it, it looks beautiful and bright. The stars look like the moon’s tears.” 

She didn’t know why, but Xiao Qi looked so lonely after saying that. So she sat up and held Xiao Qi’s hand. Xiao Qi froze and tried to take his hand away but Mei-er just held it tighter. 

“Xiao Qi, would you like to see the sky with me again?” Xiao Qi tried to shake off her hand but when he heard her words, he just stared at her. “My lady, please observe etiquette between men and women.” he said while lowering his head, blushing.

“So it’s a no?” Mei-er looked down pitifully, but she still didn’t let go of Xiao Qi’s hand. Xiao Qi on the other hand is being flustered about his hand and his lady’s expression. She looks like she’s going to cry! Ah! What to do?!

“O-okay, I agree my lady! I will see the sky with you again!” Mei-er’s face perked up after hearing that. She straightened her pose and acted refined and poised. She lets go of Xiao Qi’s hand and smiled brightly at him. 

“I like you Xiao Qi. You’re really kind, but sometimes there’s isolation and sadness behind your eyes. I hope I can enter your world as well and be able to make it livelier. I hope you don’t mind your lady being like this”

Xiao Qi became flustered and lowered his head. “I am but your servant my lady. I dare not pull you in my world, my world is only dull. I dare not covet the sun while wishing the moon freedom.”

Mei-er smiled thoughtfully at him and patted his head. “You are now part of my world. I want to do everything that can make the people in my world happy. You, Xiao Yi, Xiao Er, cousin Ling Shan, even wet nurse who only nags at me. I want every one of you to be happy.” Her smile brings life to his unmentionable emotions. His heart feels warm and bright, like the sun. Ah. Xiao Qi wishes that he can protect her smile from everything that can harm it.

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One sunny day, Mei-er suddenly had the urge to paint again, so she asked his cousin Ling Shan to allow her to go outside. Ling Shan agreed, but on the basis that Xiao Qi and his trusted guard Xiao Yan to go with her. Once outside the manor, she asked the carriage driver to go to the lake on the outskirts of town. Ling Shan’s influence reached up to the next town so she wasn’t worried about troubles coming her way. 

She sat down under the tree and started painting. Meanwhile Xiao Qi asked Xiao Yan to train him some more. Mei-er just kept painting but she suddenly gasped out loud. When both Xiao Qi and Xiao Yan came over, she just said a bug slid down her canvas and was surprised. After that, the two guards continued training not far from her.

“That was a surprise.” Mei-er murmured. On her right hand, she was holding a rose bloom, and on her left hand is a wound that looks eerily like a rose. “I didn’t know I could…”

After spending some more time painting, Xiao Qi appreached Mei-er and asked what she was painting.

“Look and see, I tried to paint the river scene.”

Xiao Qi saw in her canvas a person playing the flute on top of a tree while overlooking the exact river scene before them, the only difference is the fields are covered in red flower blooms. The flutist himself is just wearing a plain white and pink robe while his hair sways in the wind. The sky is clear with some birds flying in the background. Some flower petals fly around the canvas that the painting looks lifelike.

“It’s beautiful my lady. I like how the flower petals blend beautifully in the canvas, giving the flutist a sense of awe. But, what are these flowers called? I don’t think I have seen them before.”

“Hm? Oh, they are called roses. Roses have different colors, and different colors mean other things.”

“What does the red rose mean my lady?”

Mei-er blushes as she tries to keep her calm. After a brief moment of silence, she smiles and opens her mouth. 

“Love”

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Day passed quickly and who would have thought, a year had gone by. Today is the day Ling Shan brought in Xiao Yi, Xiao Er and Xiao Qi so Mei-er wanted to do something for this day. She didn’t tell her servants what the occasion today is so they were all confused as to what their mistress ordered them to do. She asked them to prepare a feast, some poppers, some fireworks! The servants were excited for the event, albeit clueless about what it is for.

Xiao Qi saw Mei-er holding up a potted plant and hurriedly asked her to put it down and scolded her for doing it by herself. She on the other hand, scolded back and asked who the lady was and who the servant was, so Xiao Qi had no choice but to assist her as she would not fall down.

After a year in the manor, Xiao Qi learned a lot of things that he never thought he needed. Like washing the covers instead of the bed itself, sunning the books to prevent molds, insulating the room using cotton instead of just shivering in the cold with a blanket on and so on. Thinking about it, Xiao Qi was indeed a clueless brat, but now, he could match the wet nurse when it comes to chiding and serving her lady.

“My lady, where would you want to hang this painting? Xiao Qi held out a painting containing a swhite swallow flying over a rice field while farmers look up to the sky.

“I’ll do it myself later, just leave it there for now.” Mei-er said while holding cups and plates while making her way to the prepared table. Various dishes and pastries are lined up, colorful candies and snacks paint the dinner table a sense of playfulness and childlike fun. After setting everything up, she called for Ling Shan and the whole manor’s servants. She asked them to sit down at the table, but others looked at each other and hesitantly did not sit down.

“This manor does not discriminate between servants and masters, you all know that. As long as you do no harm to us, as long as you do not betray us, as long as you know the manor’s bottom line, we will treat you like family.” Ling Shan stood up and smiled at the servants. Hearing his words, the servants teared up and thanked him wholeheartedly. They all sat down and waited for Mei-er.

Mei-er stood up and held out a cup. “I thank everyone for coming today. Thank you everyone for tirelessly serving us cousins. For treating us like family. My cousin and I do not discriminate between servants and masters. Because if there are no servants around, me and my cousin would probably end up destroying the whole manor.” the servants remembered the time when their young master Lin Shang accidentally burned the kitchen for trying to cook porridge when Mei-er was sick, and everybody laughed. 

“Today, I would like to thank everyone for their hard work. In addition to that, I would like to thank Xiao Yi, Xiao Er and Xiao Qi for coming to our manor and being a part of our family. It’s been a year since and Xiao Yi no longer bickers with the outsiders because of bumping into her.”  Everyone was surprised. So it has been a year already huh?

Xiao Yi Blushes when she hears that and Xiao Er laughs at her, in turn she is glared at back. 

“Xiao Er no longer flees whenever she breaks a vase nor does she even break them anymore!” Xiao Yi blushes and laughs awkwardly, but smiles gratefully towards Mei-er.

“And…” Mei-er blushes as she looks at Xiao Qi. “Xiao Qi no longer looks lonely and solitary.” She smiles warmly as Xiao Qi stiffens, but soon laughs at her sincerely. After her speech, everyone ate happily and forgot their status for a while, as they mingle with each other without care. Ah, if only everyday is like this, then life would be so wonderful to live in.

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I look up and – Chapter 1 – Crimson Feelings

Hello! this is Yuu and I’m pleased to show you my original work! There’s still 2 chapters out but I want to know what your thoughts are about it. Hope you enjoy it as much as I did when writing it!


In a dark alley where death looms about, a girl is pitifully slouched down as she weeps uncontrollably. By her side were two girls lying side by side in a pool of blood. And in front of her was a boy in the same condition. 

“Don’t cry my lady, it’s not your fault.” 

The boy weakly said. Blood was flowing from his mouth, and tears filled his eyes as he tries to comfort the young girl.

“Xiao Qi…Xiao Qi..Xiao Qi…” Cried the girl in between sobs. Her face painted with tears and blood. She grasped the boy’s hand tightly as she weeps continuously.

Rain started to pour and the road is slowly washed away of blood and grime, wetting the residents outside their homes and making the alley more deathly.

“********…I’m sorry” the girl freezes by the words and her sobbing abruptly stops, at the same time, the boy’s breathes his last. Time seemed to stop for the girl as reality dawns upon her. Biting her lower lip, she forced herself not to go on another bout of weeps and just looked down the ground.

Suddenly, a man in his mid-thirties approached the devastated girl. Surprisingly, as if being enveloped in an invisible veil, the man isn’t being wet by the pouring rain.

“Hm?” Hums the man. Surveying the area where the four people’s fate is unknown, he wryly smiles and crouched down to the girl. “It seems like….” His voice being obscured by the pouring rain, the young girl looked up at him and muttered the words “How did you…” The man laughs softly and stood up. He gave the girl a piece of paper and a brush. “Do what you must, leave the rest to me.” The girl frantically writes something in the piece of paper, then suddenly…..

5 years ago

“Cousin Ling, I love you. I’ve loved you since we were little up till now. I love everything about you. Please marry me!” A girl in pale pink dress shouted at Ling Shan, confessing her love. Her skin soft and white, her cheeks dyed pink from either embarrassment or determination, her natural cherry pink lips moist from her teeth biting from them. Her hair tied up in two buns with the ends free flowing on her back. She didn’t wear anything extravagant on her hair, just two ribbons holding her buns.

“Mei-er..” Ling Shan, whose eyebrows are furrowed, looked troubled at his younger cousin. He is wearing a simple pale green robe with white accents. His eyes are arched up like a phoenix’s, with a mole near his right eye. His cherry lips are beautiful to look at and tempting to bite at. His hair is tied up high making him look scholarly yet refined. He sighs deeply and answered his little cousin’s confession.

“I’m glad that you love me Mei-er, I appreciate what you have said. I hope I don’t hurt you, but unfortunately, I don’t have feelings like that for you. I can only see you as my younger sister.”

“Kuh…” Winced Mei-er. “I didn’t know being rejected was this painful.” 

Ling Shan was stunned by her reaction. He almost thought that she became crazy after her rejection. But seeing as she doesn’t look affected too much, he decided to lighten up the mood.

“Haha, I’m really sorry my dear sweet cousin. I could never imagine myself having a family with you.” 

“Gah! Stop! Stop already!” Mei-er dramatically held her ears and crouched down, as if being hit by stones. “Sheesh cousin Ling, you have to be very gentle when rejecting others you know.”

“Hahaha, if I go the gentle route, people will just misunderstand. It’s better to not give them hope.” Ling Shan pulled his cousin up and put his arm around her shoulders. “You sure have guts I can give you that. Let’s go home, I have some business to attend to.”

“Then cousin Ling, now that you’ve rejected me, can I paint you?”

“Of course, but after I finish the matters at home.”

After going home, Mei-er was scolded by her wet nurse for coming back late, then told her to go bathe before having dinner. The manor she lives in is surrounded by peach blossom trees that when they bloom, the scent travels inside, calming the atmosphere and making it worth relaxing. Mei-er had always loved to paint so her room is filled with brushes and paint dyes. Her latest work, “Over the Sunrise” features a silhouette of a young girl sitting on a hill, gazing at the sunrise with the town as her backdrop. Her work isn’t as refined as the masters, but she enjoys painting so much that she doesn’t mind. Some of her works are also asked by her cousin Ling to be hanged on his room as well. 

Mei-er lived in Ling Shan’s manor because her parents died at a young age. His father, Xiao Xing Ze, is Ling Shan’s uncle. Before Mei-er was born, Ling Shan was adored by his uncle. Even thinking of kidnapping him to become his son, and that made his brother beat him up numerous times. When Bai Wu Qing got pregnant with Mei-er, he no longer bothered Ling Shan, which made the latter a bit lonely. After both of them died together with his father, Ling Shan sworn to take care of Mei-er, even taking care of her dowry and marriage.

After public matters are done, Ling Shan went to Mei-er’s manor for her request.

“Cousin Ling! I thought you would never come.” Mei-er pouted her cheeks, which Ling shan poked for fun.

“Mei-er, when did I ever lie to you?”

“I don’t know, maybe that time you said you’d buy me candy but instead bought me the candy stall.”

“You said you wanted to try selling candies someday, so I bought you the cart to start with.”

“Ugh. Or that time you said you wouldn’t force me to bathe, but you dunked me in the pool anyway”

“You were itching badly so I had no choice but to help you get rid of the itch. Cold water is known for-”

“Ah enough enough. This is my manor, so you have to follow my rules. You have to follow what I instruct you to do in my painting!” Mei-er huffs irritatedly.

“Alright alright, what does my little cousin want?”

“Strip.”

“????” Ling Shan was dumbfounded. He held his temple and patiently said “I can’t strip naked, can I at least keep my trousers?”

“What are you talking about? You would need to wear this!” Mei-er showed a red robe embroidered with a snake and an apple. …..It looked like the outfit worn by those brothel workers.

“…..Where did you get this?”

“No questions, just wear it!” Mei-er said, her eyes looking moist, as if she would cry if he were to say another word.

“….” not having any choice, he changed into the robe, while the snake embroidered in it looked at him mockingly.

Indeed, the robe looked like it was made for seduction. The robe is intentionally oversized, giving the feeling of laziness. Ling Shan had to hold the arm area together to keep them from falling and revealing more of his body. But instead of covering himself, it just looked like he was a man ravaged by wolves, cunning, hungry and lustful wolves….. The chest area is slightly open, as if tempting those who look to open it. The leg area is also open, revealing the scars on his white thighs. The scars didn’t taint the entire picture, rather it added to the allure Ling Shan was giving. His face is red as beets and his breathing is unstable, either from embarrassment or the mysterious feeling creeping up from his chest.

“Mei-er isn’t this too much?”

“No buts! I will paint now, so just stand there like that.” And Mei-er just ignored him, and started to paint.

Seconds felt like minutes and minutes felt like hours. Ling Shan was so embarrassed that he could not keep still, allowing Mei-er to come and throw one of her brushes to him so he doesn’t move a lot. Finally, after two hours, the painting is finished and Ling Shan hurriedly changed back to his old clothing.

Mei-er let the canvas dry and cleaned up the place. After changing, Ling Shan went back to Mei-er’s room and asked to see the painting. He was stupefied to see that even though he thought he looked embarrassed wearing those robes, the painting begs to differ. In it, he looks like he was a lover who had lost his love, weeping under the moonlight while hugging his shoulders. His cheeks were flushed, not from embarrassment but from the tears he had shed. The robes in the painting looked desolate even though they were red and lively. It gave him the feeling of pain and loneliness one would experience from loss. The backdrop is that of a forest, glowing cold in the night with the crescent moon enveloped in clouds.

“I want to call it…. Crimson Feelings. How about it cousin Ling?

Ling Shan was still staring at the painting and looked at her. Is this what she felt when he rejected her?

“I know what you’re thinking. Yes, this is what I felt when you rejected me. I use what I feel as fuel to create pieces like this. It’s fun and at the same time, I feel better after making it.”

Ling Shan was silently contemplating all of the pieces she created that are in his hands. One was called Fragrant Desert where a peach blossom tree blows over a sea of sand, layering the sand with blossoms while the sky is tinted in orange and red, showing her innermost emotions being masked by the gentle emotions while hiding her negative ones. and another was Moonlit Demise that she created right after he parents died. It’s a piece where a young woman was kneeling while holding her hands up to the moonlit sky while her hands seemingly turn into dust, showing her loneliness at being left alone by her parents. He just realized that all of her pieces were based on her life story.

“Mm. Is that so? I guess your emotions are used so each and every one of your work feels lifelike. You should enjoy creating more pieces. I will let you paint whatever you desire, just say it.”

“Thank you, cousin Ling.”

The moonlit sky show traces of stars and clouds. While the two people inside the manor face their own emotions and desires.

Chapter 2 here