Tag: Kannagi

As I stopped pressing his wound to get the medicine, his blood continued to spurt out, but even so, I went to give him that medicine.

If you take too much of this pill in a short time, the side effects will be much worse.

It’s the same even if it’s processed with water magic.

Still, who can say that incoming enemy soldiers won’t have magic stones on them.

“I will do the rest, so you should focus on the enemy.”

The fact that my magic is the most suitable to destroy the magic stones is guaranteed in the novel.

Even Atlas isn’t sure if his magic can do the same, as their magic is not suitable for combat.

I urge Atlas to hurry as if holding back the tears in my eyes.

“It’s okay, if I can’t find it, I’ll just burn them all to the ground.”

The only drawback of using fire magic is its power depends on the environment.

So in order to use fire magic even in a bad environment, utmost control must be applied, or else it will go out of control.

But this is almost always ignored in a battlefield.

So now, all I will do today is to burn the enemies down to ashes.

Atlas’ eyes understood the meaning behind my words.

“You didn’t…”

“They asked for it so I can’t do anything but to comply. Now, I won’t lose”

A sorcerer suffering from pain begs for my magic.

To protect him, I have to point my magic to him and end his life.

As my vision return, my eyes become wet to the point I can no longer hold it in.

The target right now returned from my enemy, to my comrades, and back to my enemies.

It ignites the flames for those who are attacking, and those asking for salvation.

“So please, give me more medicine”

I am not a water mage so I can only burn.

As Gil-sama once said, I can only go with the grudges.

As I cover my mouth with my hand, Atlas gripped my hand and looked at my battered body and shook his head.

“Don’t do it.”

“Is your magic powerful enough to deal with the magic stones?”

“Isn’t it the same with you?”

Looking at his beautiful eyebrows, a frustrating emotion arose.

Right now, no one else but me can destroy those magic stones, there is also not much known about those stones as well.

However, time is running out fast and a distorted smile crept up to my lips.

“Oh yeah…You don’t know yet”

The words that were unconsciously spoken were said and Atlas glare pierced me sharply.

My mouth slipped.

The magic stone is destroyed once you poured a certain amount of mana into them.

Although it’s such an easy thing, it’s still not yet known in your country.

Even though Gil-smaa must prove he can destroy the stones first, if he finds out how to destroy them, the information will be relayed to the military.

Oh, but.

When will Gil-sama be able to destroy the magic stones? Did it happen in the novel I read?

“Origa, what do you know?”

Am I reflected in this person’s eyes? This figure of “Maiden of Fire”? When I pursed my mouth and refuse to answer, Atlas spoke with his piercing glare at me.

“I know you don’t trust me but I don’t want to implicate you, my precious friend any more than this.”

Why do you see me with such pitiful eyes?

I’m not pitiful at all.

Why do you say such insincere words?

Anyway, you are here to get rid of me.

Why are you against the trap os justice?

“I will take more medicine, so you don’t need to fight anymore.”

The waves of emotion can no longer be held back.

“You can say that, but what can you do?!”

The high pitched scream echoes in the forest.

Why is this so frustrating?

Atlas was given a setting where he will lead a good life as Gil-sama’s best friend.

On the other hand, what was given to me was the role of hurting the hero and rebelling against the country at the cost of hurting many people.

I don’t want anyone who doesn’t understand to deny this move.

I don’t want anyone who can’t do anything to deny my role.

“Avoid being tormented…? Let me fight! I have to fight anyway no matter what I do! The past, present, and future are all already decided! Because I was born as “Origa”, if I do it all and everything goes well, my death then will not be in vain. I know it all, I remember it all!”

It is not scary to live as a villain, kill a person and then die as a villain.

Because I know the weight of the villain’s death to the hero.

I know that’s an important event for this story to lead to a happy ending. That’s why, only I can do this.

“But I made a mistake”

There’s a voice that keeps blaming me inside my head.

Harvester-sama will not die if not because of me

Atlas will never take any action if not because of me

Many sorcerers will not die in this battle if not because of me

The story that I know form the novel is slowly getting off track.

Then this villainous existence that is me, what role am I supposed to play now?

Then, I should just die right?

“Eveything….I….It’s my…!”

“Calm down Ori!”

The thoughts inside your head reveal their ugliness.

Protecting sorcerers and then killing this “villainous god”, sleeping and dreaming peacefully on the bed, an unreachable dream, hands dyed red with blood, and pain slamming on your head. The story has begun to be different. At the end of this journey, the hero walks on a royal path. This ending is no longer the novel’s but this is reality.

I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

If you look at what’s happening.

If you come and see this reality.

The enemy soldier have pounced crazily at Atlas, but he was struck down by his powerful arms and fell on his butt.

Trying to get up, I saw something moving at the corner of my eye.

“……Huh?”

Something came flying towards Atlas’ body and with a dull sound, his body fell in the ground with a pool of blood under it.

Once my tears stopped flowing, I took a step back, hiding myself at the root of a tree. As Atlas approached, his face is pale and tiredness is written all over it. After I calmed down, I remembered what Atlas has said.

His voice sounded painful when he told me his father is now dead. The cause of his sadness is all because of me. I know I won’t be forgiven, but even so I wanted to apologize. However as I was going to speak, a low voice fell into my ear.

“Is your magic still okay?”

It was like he was reminding me about my current condition. The flow of mana inside my body can hardly be felt. It’s like if you have a tattered magical book, you can feel that the “vessel” is slowly cracking due to heavy use. In the novel, the “villainess” is supposed to be in this state after being chased around by the hero.

–If I continue to use magic in my condition, at this rate, my mana will run out and my life will be extinguished before I meet Gil-sama again.

Atlas gently shook his head and after untying his backpack, rummaged around inside for something. He took out a small parcel and inside was dried food and herbs. He also took out a small bottle with countless pills inside with hesitation. He held up a pill up in the moonlight. The pill reflected a dull silver color after the moonlight reflected on it. I have seen it in the novel but I have never used it before.

“this is…”

“A souvenir from Gil.”

It was never necessary for me to use but the soldiers at the end of the war held it for emergencies. But Keika said she had used it countless times before. It is a magical pill that rapidly restores your mana.

However, there are side effects as it is also a poison. When I thought about it, I took it from him. Looking up at Atlas, He smiled while whispering:

“You don’t know since you haven’t used it, but it won’t affect you if you drink it all at once.”

He took a single pill and swallowed it before stopping. Sounds of crushing and swallowing are heard and then he spat some blood. The sensation felt like being intoxicated after drinking many times.

“Have you used it before?”

“Something like that.”

The virtue the hero in the novel always spoke about is always realized after many twists and turns.

Someone will not die.

There are no cruel deeds done.

Things like pain and suffering do not occur.

It should be a character that moves toward a safe and peaceful ending without any dangers lurking.

Why is it so dangerous now?

“Knight school is just a way to learn theories, Everyone just learned for the sake of learning. The rest is just dull. So I’m going to the battlefield as a magician.”

…That’s it.

I think it was because Atlas chose the path to be a magician instead of the path to being a knight.

I was the one who encouraged him to be a magician on the battlefield.

Because I slapped him with the harsh reality of war.

Then this too, I…

“I don’t have enough and it seemed to be wrapped in water magic, but keep it in one as it will recover until you can defend yourself”

A single drop of it dulls the moonlight.

This is poisonous to the body.

“I” panic in my head, thinking if I should drink it.

But if I don’t take it, I will surely die.

The foolishness I committed is in the form of poison in front of me.

If…

When one take it and crush it using your molars, the bitterness will gradually spread in your whole mouth. It was like medicine “I” have tasted before and while my mind is thinking, I put up with the discomfort it gave me, giving me goose bumps.

*******

Although it was a very potent drug, taking it is a very reckless action according to Atlas.

Even if it was not possible to return to the fort, it seems like a rescue operation was brought out and return to the base with the soldiers deployed in the vicinity.

However, it will be difficult if they take me with them, even if they have a medic with them, I will bring them down as I have anaemia due to bleeding so much.

Unfortunately we were found by the enemy soldiers.

Even if I take the recovery pills, it still didn’t replenish enough mana to generate a lethal blow to kill the enemy. But Atlas isn’t in any better. My mana has run out and I am also physically exhausted.

Something bright crimson is being emitted from my body, and a scream not being voiced out is about to come out.

There is a pungent smell of meat and low grunts mixing together.

I have to burn it up so I don’t suffer longer.

Even if I force myself to use my fire magic to the point of trembling, I will just suffer the pain of not being able to materialize my power, because my mana is slowly being depleted.

It was too late when I realized that a sword is slowly coming through Atlas, while he, did not even have a chance to pull his sword out, was stabbed by the enemy.

Blood spurts from his wound and dyes Atlas’ clothing, while looking at the enemy soldiers that fell without emotions.

“uu….guh…..”

A nauseating, teeth chattering scene is laid out before me. Of course, there is fear in what I have done.

This scene of man killing man is too realistic that it overwhelms all of my senses.

But more that that—- The hero screams that he and his friends should not repeat someone’s actions.

I feel a strong nausea and discomfort.

This cannot be.

Taking poison, killing people, what’s next?

Unlike me, he should be on the right path, and supporting the hero.

The villain will always trudge the same path no matter how many sins he commit, but the supporting character suddenly deviated from the story as he sins like this.

Don’t make Atlas any guiltier than this.

This word drives me to the wall that it has become so painful.

I crouch and cover my trembling body as “I” scream in my head.

“Please give me the pill.”

TL notes: Hi! I will try to pick this project up. I hope you wont mind the grammar mistakes ^^ I will try to release 1-2 chapters a week, depending on my schedule. See you again next time!